The last few weeks have caused me to really take a hard look at where I am and what I really want to be when I grow up. I'm having the corporate dilema of not really knowing where I should be career-wise. And I'm combining that with the self-doubt of is it me, or the situation??
It's a shake to my confidence I've never had before. I have always believed that with enough work and learning from my mistakes I can figure out any job. It's not that I won't screw something up, it's that' I won't screw it up twice. That mentality has served me well. I'm not afraid to take on a role and I'm willing to accept responsibility when something goes south. Because then I can fix it and make sure it never happens again. But in my current role, it's just not working. Namely because even when I change things I seem to still be off the mark. I've been here 2 years and there's been a lot of work, but only minimal real success. Especially when you balance it with that I see as a profound lack of success.
I'm not sure if it's just me or a bigger issue.... Is it possible that I Just Don't Get It? Is there actually something TO Get? Or is the whole situation so messed up that I am really making the best of a crappy situation??? I really wish I knew.
It's tempting to assume the latter because it makes it not my fault. I tend to be somewhere in the middle. I don't think I really don't get it, but I do know I'm not really getting it either.
It comes down to a new dilema for me of what do I want to do vs what are my strengths vs what do I think my strengths are. And are those 3 things close to being aligned. For the first time, I just dunno.
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