5 Months later

Well, it's been 5 months since I've posted here and things have been up and down to say the least. I've made some progress in a lot of areas, but really, nothing that makes things any better.

I have, however, decided to stop complaining and start changing. I've been on a bit of a job hunt, but moreso internally. I'm trying to create me role in the company and then grow into it. It's weird, I have been successful in some areas, but not in others. Yet at least now I know I'm learning. That makes me happier.

So I'm going back to what this blog was supposed to be-- Me talking through things and learning from them. Maybe if someone decides to read this blog, they will see something of themselves here too.

So....

I had this program that I have to kick off, it was something I've done before but I missed something that was really important. I had all the pieces lined up, things were moving forward and on-schedule I thought, until the VP stepped in and put a stop on a key piece for me. I learned then that I had a problem-- Not that the program kick off was at risk (that was fixable), but  I had missed the piece of getting the buy-in from the other key stakeholders in the company. I had reached out to the operational people in each group and the work was getting done, but the exec level just wasn't understanding how much progress we had been making.

It was a simple fix (a bi-weekly meeting would have done it) but it was a step that I missed. And for the life of me, I don't know why. It may be because I was up to me unmentionables in trying to get work through for FY end, or it might be because it just never occurred to me. Either way, it was learning experience.

I'm finding myself looking for permission to do things that I should just go ahead and do. And I need to get myself to a place where I am confident enough to move on things I know are right and then get it done. I think that is the key to really moving up, but am I right??? . Is it about not just creating the solution, but executing on it?

 Ironically, it seems circular. You start by just doing the work, then you manage the work, then you create the solution, now I'm back to executing on the solution I create. Is that what exec management is? Create AND execute on the plan? Or is there still something I missing?? Or am I know at the "get it done" phase of a new level? I dunno, but either way, it was a good learning experience for me.